**Days 218 & 219**

We had a busy, but fun weekend!  We had to be out of the house by 8am Sat. to get our daughter to the theater to perform as "Miss Hannigan" again, and she did a great job...again! :-)  And then we stayed at a hotel with my best friend's family - the kids spent hours and hours swimming, and us adults spent time hanging out, and having a few drinks. :)  So, I know I was over on my calories on Sat. with the drinks, and a couple other goodies, but I'm okay with allowing myself to go off plan for one day.

I just spent an hour planning out my food, and my exercise, schedule for the week, so I'm going to stick to the plan, and, hopefully, see a nice loss on Friday!

Have a good week!

**Day 217**

1 pound lost this week:

I hate to complain about a loss, BUT, seriously, only 1 pound?!  I worked my butt off this week in every area - exercise, food, and water - so I was expecting a bigger loss, I really WANTED a bigger loss.  It's so frustrating!  I guess, I will look at the positives, A) I didn't gain, and B) I'm below 220 again.

Have a great weekend!!

**Day 216**

My daughter and I headed out for a 5K walk/run tonight, but we only did 2.6 miles.  I bought new running shoes for my daughter, but they started bothering her during the workout, so we had to turn back.  She probably just needs to break them in a little more.  Anyway, we ran about 20 min., and walked the rest, and it took us, just over, 40 minutes.  After we got home I got on my treadmill, and did a 1 mile walk/run - 3 min. walk, 2 min. run, 3 min. walk, 2 min. run, etc.:

I love that my daughter is wanting to run with me!  It feels great that we are doing this together, and I can't wait to do the race with her on Aug. 20th.  My younger daughter isn't all that interested in running with me, but I'm going to keep working on her! :)

**Still Day 215**

I just finished a late night walk/run workout on my treadmill:

I'm gotta say - that 1.0 incline kills me!  My thighs are burning, and that's just at 1.0!  I probably wouldn't be able to stand if I did a 2.0 or 3.0 incline!  Anyway, I did a total of 3 miles today, and burned 425 calories during my workouts - not bad.  I hoping to see a nice loss on the scale this week - I really need the boost!

**Day 215**

I was reading Kenlie's blog yesterday about how she's been dealing with insecurities about her body, and I can really relate to that issue.  I am so insecure about my body....so, so insecure!  It's an awful feeling.  I always feel like people are looking at me, and judging my fat body.  When there's someone in line behind me at Walmart I'm convinced they are thinking - Eww, she is so fat!  I don't like running outside during the daylight hours for the same reason - I'm sure that every person who sees me is making fun of my fat ass trying to run down the street.  I hate how I look, so I figure everyone must hate the way I look, too.  We have friends coming to our cabin in a couple weeks, and I have to wear a suit in front of them when we go out on the lake - I can't tell you how much I'm dreading it!!  Anyway, Kenlie had this quote on her site:

“A stranger’s judgment of you does not define who you are; it defines who they are.”


I like it.  I need to stop worrying about what people think of me.  Yes, people are going to judge me on just my appearance and I can't change that, but I, certainly, shouldn't be judging myself so harshly, in the same way.  I'm going to work on this.  


I did a 1 mile jog on my treadmill this morning:

Not my fastest run - I wasn't feeling great while running, but, at least, I did the workout, and ran the whole mile.  We met some friends to do some walking at a local walking trail, so I got some extra exercise there.  I'm going to get back on the treadmill later tonight, and walk another two miles.  I've been drinking lots of water today, and my eating is, again, right on!  So, it's been a great week, so far!

**Day 214**

I had planned to do a late night 5K run outside after we got home from my daughter's play tonight, but it started storming out on our way home.  I guess, I should have checked to see what the weather was going to be like tonight! :-\  Luckily, I did a treadmill workout earlier in the day.  I did a 3 mile walk/run:

I burned almost 400 calories, so it was a good workout!  My eating, and water intake. was right on today, so I'm very happy with how I did today.  I'm just taking it one day at a time.  One. Day. At. A. Time.

My 10-year-old daughter performed as Miss Hannigan in the Annie musical tonight.  She did so awesome, and I am so proud of her!!  Here's a couple pics:

                                                           I love her facial expressions!

                                                All her friends that came to watch her!!!

**Days 212 & 213**

I ended July in the 220's - where I swore I would never be again. :-(

I'm disappointed, but I'm not surprised because I hadn't been eating well, or exercising enough.  So, I gained 3.5 pounds since my last weigh-in on July 15th.  July was not a good month for me, especially the end of the month. I feel like it's the hardest month I've had since I started on this journey, but I need to put July behind me, and focus on August, and beyond.

I'm not going to bother taking progress pics this month since, clearly, there is no progress, and I don't want to depress myself further by looking at pics of myself.

Goals for August:

• Track my food every day!
• Drink 120 oz. every day!
• 5k run Sundays, Tuesdays, & Thursdays
• Treadmill Mondays, Wednesdays, & Fridays
• DVD workout Mondays, Wednesdays & Fridays
• Play Wii with my girls, at least, 3 days a week
• Lose 8 pounds