Tuesday, July 12, 2011

**Day 193**

Today was not a good day for me.  In fact, it, totally, sucked.  I woke up to my girls fighting, and the day went downhill from there.  I'm still not 100% from my night of partying over the weekend - I'm tired, and just off.  To be honest, I was a little bummed that no one at the party noticed that I had lost 30 pounds.  I hate to be needy like that, but I hadn't seen most of those people since losing the weight, and I was hoping someone would notice.  I know, since I'm so big, it will probably take losing like 50 pounds before people will notice any weight loss.  Anyway, I let my emotions get the best of me today, and I ate like crap!!  I had a cheeseburger and fries from McDonalds.  I had a soft serve chocolate ice cream cone from Dairy Queen.  I had a hot mocha drink from Caribou.  I shared an appetizer, stuffed flounder, mashed potatoes, and cheddar biscuits at Red Lobster w/ my husband.  Yup, I went on a total binge.  I feel like crap - emotionally, mentally, and physically, but I won't be eating like this again.  I won't continue on this path - I promise.  Right now, I'm heading out to try a 5K run/walk.  I'm sure it's not going to go all that great with all this awful food I have in my body, but I'm going to give it a try anyway.


  1. so sorry that no one noticed the loss. :( That's tough.. when it's become such a huge part of your life.

    Yeah, you did eat a bunch of crap today, and I can totally relate, as I went off on an emotional binge yesterday.. but it's time to get back up on the horse.. no more. The taste of the food is long gone before the regret leaves. You can do this!

    I hope the 5K went well.

  2. Yup, it was like that for me too...I had to lose 40 lbs. before someone questioned "Have you lost weight?" DUH! It is frustrating to have no one notice all the hard work. Remember, today is just ONE day on the journey and you get a brand new start tomorrow. Lisa

  3. Thanks, Jacqui and Lisa! I know I can't let it get me down. I'm just going to keep going!!