**Day 100**

100 days ago, I made the decision to improve my physical self, and I've followed through with that decision.  Oh, I still have a long way to go before I get to where I want to be physically, but I'm doing better, and I'm, slowly, reaching my goals.  And I feel like I'm improving mentally and emotionally, too, because really it's all related, right?  I feel more secure and confident.  I feel like I'm managing my emotions better, which makes it easier to cope with challenges and stresses.  I feel more content and balanced.  I'm still not sure why it took me so, so, so long to start making these changes in my life.  Perhaps, I, finally, realized that my self-loathing and self-punishments weren't working for me anymore, and I realized it was time, once and for all, to climb out of that pit.  For some reason, for many years, not liking myself did something for me - not a good something, of course, but something.  I know that must sound crazy - it's difficult to explain.   But, thankfully, from somewhere deep inside myself, it came time for a better something!  And I was, finally, was able to see that liking and loving myself is okay.  So, I'm learning to believe that I'm a good person, in spite of the bad choices I've made in my life.  Self-forgiveness is good.  Self-forgiveness is deserved.  Self-forgiveness is vital.  I know that now, and it's helping me to move forward - in so many ways.