Sunday, April 10, 2011

**Day 100**

100 days ago, I made the decision to improve my physical self, and I've followed through with that decision.  Oh, I still have a long way to go before I get to where I want to be physically, but I'm doing better, and I'm, slowly, reaching my goals.  And I feel like I'm improving mentally and emotionally, too, because really it's all related, right?  I feel more secure and confident.  I feel like I'm managing my emotions better, which makes it easier to cope with challenges and stresses.  I feel more content and balanced.  I'm still not sure why it took me so, so, so long to start making these changes in my life.  Perhaps, I, finally, realized that my self-loathing and self-punishments weren't working for me anymore, and I realized it was time, once and for all, to climb out of that pit.  For some reason, for many years, not liking myself did something for me - not a good something, of course, but something.  I know that must sound crazy - it's difficult to explain.   But, thankfully, from somewhere deep inside myself, it came time for a better something!  And I was, finally, was able to see that liking and loving myself is okay.  So, I'm learning to believe that I'm a good person, in spite of the bad choices I've made in my life.  Self-forgiveness is good.  Self-forgiveness is deserved.  Self-forgiveness is vital.  I know that now, and it's helping me to move forward - in so many ways.

6 comments:

  1. "And I feel like I'm improving mentally and emotionally, too, because really it's all related, right? I feel more secure and confident."

    YES! YES! YES!

    Go, girl! GO!

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  2. This post makes me happy. So glad you took the time to make yourself a priority and that you are getting all of these great feelings from it!

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  3. Looking forward to catching up on your journey here. Thanks for following my blog.

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  4. When you finish your journey and reach your goal, you should take the comments you have entered into your blod and write a book. It will definetly be a inspiration to alot of people. I couldn't be more proud of you. Love Dad

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  5. Thanks, Dad!! But I don't think my mediocre writing ability will make for a great book, but I'm glad you like my blog! :)

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