Saturday, June 11, 2011
So, yesterday was a very bad day for me /w the 4.5 gain, but I'm feeling a little better today.....but not 100%. I know it's wrong, but sometimes I just miss the carefree way I used to live - eating whatever I wanted to eat and not having to plan every meal ahead of time, not worrying about giving into temptations, not worrying about fitting exercise into my day, not worrying about weigh-ins....you know what I mean? I know, I know - living that way was not good for me, but, jeez, in some ways it felt alot less stressful than how I'm living now. I know I'm only feeling this way because I'm frustrated. Needing to lose 120 pounds sometimes feels like an impossible thing to do, especially when I have a confusing 5 pound gain, but I know at the end of this long journey, when I reach my goal (and I will), all the blood, sweat, and tears (the many, many tears) will be worth it! I have about 100 more pounds to lose, and I know there will be struggles and I know there will be frustration along the way, but there will, also, be successes and satisfaction, and I need to remember to focus on the good stuff!
Posted by Shannon