WARNING: This post is about sex (kind of), so you might not want to read it. Dad, you, definitely, don't need to read it, so X out of the blog, right now!
Confession #3 - I haven't seen my husband during sex in years! Since becoming obese I am a lights out only gal! No lights allowed, and, I mean, it's gotta be pitch black. Seriously, sometimes it can take up to 30 seconds for me and the hubby to find each other. And that's not all - I have to have a sheet, completely, wrapped around my mid-section during sex because the thought of all my fat rolls touching my husband makes me cringe. It's ridiculous, I know, and my husband thinks I'm crazy, but I can't get past it. And I won't even get into the positions I won't do anymore because of how self-conscious I am, and, well, because some positions just aren't as easy as they were when I was thinner! So, for almost 14 years, my hubby has had to put up with this nonsense from me! Gosh, he's a good guy! But it's so wrong that I've put us through this - I guess, it just goes to show how low my self-esteem is. I need to learn to love myself as I am, but it's hard. I hope, as I continue to lose weight, I'll get the courage to, at least, turn a night-light on. And I'm sure my hubby can't wait for me to be more adventurous, again.....actually, I can't wait either!