**Day 270**

I asked yesterday (under the picture I posted of me and my mom) if my extra chin was ever going to go away, which was a really stupid question because there's a reason it's not going away!!  I've been losing, and gaining, the same 8 pounds since, like, June!  I'm not making progress, so, of course, I still have the extra chin, the extra tummy rolls, the chubby legs, etc.  I do good for a few days, and then I don't do good for four days, and then I do good, and then bad, and then good, and then bad, and so on, and so forth.  I was so determined the first five months of this year, but the I lost my motivation, and I haven't been able to get that fire back, completely.  Sure, I've been doing 5k races every month for the last three months, but that doesn't mean crap if I'm not making progress with my health, and I'm not.  I'm failing.  I hate that I'm failing.  I hate having to post about my lack of progress again, and again, and again.  Yes, I've lost weight over the last couple weeks, but, like I said, it's not really a new loss - it's just losing what I had gained back.  And since the race on Sunday I've been eating like crap again, and not exercising - I always do this after a race.  I have no explanation.  Self-sabotage?  Laziness?  I don't know, but I'm done.  I'm done failing.  It was this picture from last Christmas that got me started on my weight loss journey:

Christmas is only about three months away, and I will not look this way this holiday season.  I've lost about 30 pounds, but I have much more to lose, and I need to get back in the game!

I'm surprised anyone reads my blog, but I appreciate you all for sticking with me.  I will be posting less about failing, and more about succeeding, from here on out!