Tuesday, September 27, 2011

**Day 270**

I asked yesterday (under the picture I posted of me and my mom) if my extra chin was ever going to go away, which was a really stupid question because there's a reason it's not going away!!  I've been losing, and gaining, the same 8 pounds since, like, June!  I'm not making progress, so, of course, I still have the extra chin, the extra tummy rolls, the chubby legs, etc.  I do good for a few days, and then I don't do good for four days, and then I do good, and then bad, and then good, and then bad, and so on, and so forth.  I was so determined the first five months of this year, but the I lost my motivation, and I haven't been able to get that fire back, completely.  Sure, I've been doing 5k races every month for the last three months, but that doesn't mean crap if I'm not making progress with my health, and I'm not.  I'm failing.  I hate that I'm failing.  I hate having to post about my lack of progress again, and again, and again.  Yes, I've lost weight over the last couple weeks, but, like I said, it's not really a new loss - it's just losing what I had gained back.  And since the race on Sunday I've been eating like crap again, and not exercising - I always do this after a race.  I have no explanation.  Self-sabotage?  Laziness?  I don't know, but I'm done.  I'm done failing.  It was this picture from last Christmas that got me started on my weight loss journey:
Christmas is only about three months away, and I will not look this way this holiday season.  I've lost about 30 pounds, but I have much more to lose, and I need to get back in the game!

I'm surprised anyone reads my blog, but I appreciate you all for sticking with me.  I will be posting less about failing, and more about succeeding, from here on out!

7 comments:

  1. We'll hold you to that!! :) Best wishes.

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  2. Thank you, April! I need someone to be tough with me - keep it up! :)

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  3. Heres to a better state of mind to get you back and running on this journey! Somethings got to be holding you back.. thats always tough to figure out but blogging can help get it out there and make some breakthroughs. Stay with us for sure :0)

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  4. Well, you know from my post 2 days ago that I am in the same boat. I cam very much relate to what you are going through!!! I got a lot of great advice that anyone in our situation could use and after I read people's comments and advice, I thought to myself, enough is enough. If you read the post from Dr Fat Gets Fit about bringing your A-game, you will get the gist of what it means to be serious about losing weight. Reading it was like getting a cyber slap in the face....I suggest reading it and see if it has the same effect! I have a quite a few "Christmas" pictures too that made me cringe....I also vowed "No More!" But the only person that can keep you from weight loss is you. Same goes for me - only I can sabotage my efforts. The good thing is that there is so much support - and I am here for you so if you need a good cyber ass-kicking one day, and a gentle nudge the next - I'm here! We can do this together. Let's make the Big 4-0 a little smaller this coming year - if you know what I mean! We are worth it!!!!!

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  5. I will be sticking with you for the long run.. and you WILL make your goal for Christmas!

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  6. I have been feeling the same way lately...lost a bit, felt more confident, ran more, eaten more - will stop losing weight now. Its NOT good.

    We need to stay motivated! I need to set a day or something once a week maybe that I can have dessert etc because I've been eating sporadically the past fortnight and not taking as much notice of exactly what is going in to my mouth, what is on my plate etc.

    Are you increasing your running distances? Also did you run the whole of your last 5k nonstop?

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  7. Thanks for the constant support!!!!

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