**Why Now**

So, why am I ready to do lose this weight after being obese for almost 14 years? Well, there are many, many reasons - I will post about them later, but the picture below was the final straw!

I was flipping through Xmas pictures, and, OMG, there I was - huge, unhealthy, sad. I don't usually see pictures of myself because I don't allow them to be taken, but this one slipped by me. This is what I look like to the world! I don't want the world to see me this way - I want to look better! Sure, it's vain, but there it is. Of course, I am losing the weight to become healthy, and I am losing it to set a good example for my daughters. But I am, also, losing it because I want to be able to feel proud about the way I look, and I can't be proud looking the way I do in the picture of above! I am ashamed about the way I look, and that is not how I want to live my life anymore.