Wednesday, May 18, 2011

**Day 138**

I cried again after my run tonight, but out of frustration - not joy!  I decided to try running outdoors for the first time - my goal was to run 1 mile straight.  Well, that didn't happen - not even close!  I can't run outside!!  Listen, I knew running outside would be harder than running on the treadmill, but I didn't know it would be this hard!  I, barely, made it a block before having to stop.  My breathing was all off, my knees hurt, my feet felt like lead weights - I sucked!  And now I'm, totally, discouraged, and thinking there's no way I'm going to be able to do that 5K on July 21st.  So, yea, I feel defeated, BUT I'm not giving up.  I'm going to keep at it until I can run that 1 mile, and when I can do it I'm going to go a mile and half, and then two miles.  I will do it!

Exercise today:
30 Day Shred, Level 2
1.5 mile walk/run....well, mostly, walking! :(

My calves are really, really sore from doing the elliptical yesterday at the gym, so I decided to skip the WATP 2 mile workout today.  It's okay to give my body a bit of a rest, right?


  1. Let me tell you something I'm finding about my own self. When you change your work-out - even a little, it can make you feel like the most out of shape person in the world! Yesterday, I walked 18 miles training for the Avon walk, I was walking briskly along for like 6 hrs out of a 7.5hr hour journey (lunch, pit stops, etc)... As you know, I walk often and because it's the same thing over and over I had no real trouble adding on mileage every week or so. Actually, I felt FAR better after 18 yesterday, than I did when I did 12 only 2 weeks ago! Now, put me in the gym and have my trainer stick me on a treadmill for 15 min at the same speed I walk outside with, but add some incline and I am DYING after TWO MINUTES. TWO MINUTES! (I made it through the 15, but it was NOT PRETTY AT ALL!) I was all practically in tears because he told me not to hold onto the treadmill... what do I hold onto outside??? Nothing! lol Now obviously, I am not hopelessly out of shape or I couldn't ace the 18 mile walk - but I definitely have some things to work on!! How it can be such a wide gap of ability, I do not know... but it is what it is. Same with you - it's harder because it's different and just like you built up on the treadmill, you will do it outside too. No got it! Think of it as Level2 and maybe even start the program over, but on the street - no shame in that AT ALL. Watch, in another month - you'll be way closer to where you want to be - and more well rounded in your physical abilities!: )

  2. Every time you go out, you go just a little further. :) You still have plenty of time to build up for the 5K!

    So you did the Shred and the walk/run today? I think it's just fine you skipped the WATP to give you a rest. :)

  3. Don't make me come kick your ass ;-) Running outside is just the next big step, and it was hard, but that doesn't mean you CAN'T do it.

    As for giving your body a rest. Of course that it ok. As long as you did it for the right reasons and not because you were feeling defeated!

    I am sure you will be able to do that 5K in July!!! Keep going :-)

  4. This happened to me, too, sweetie. And I did the same thing. I went into a panic about the 5K and the thought of running outside still makes me cringe a bit. Relax. You just have to get your body used to it...and you WILL get used to it. It'll become easier, too.

    Focus on that. Think of it as a new challenge to your body. Btw, that new challenge will help you burn more calories since it's something your body isn't used to. :)

  5. Thank you, everyone, for your words of support! I really needed them after last night!