Tuesday, November 8, 2011

**Day 312**

So, after I breakfast (two pieces of toast with a little peanut butter on them, one plum, hot tea, and a glass of water) I headed upstairs to get dressed for the day, and I decided to step on my scale.  I haven't been on it since Oct. 31st, which is not the norm for me.  Normally, I hop on that thing, at least, every couple days, but with the sickness going on around here I just haven't cared, or really even thought about it.  Anyway, what I saw on that scale was not good - 228.5.  Shit.  I was in shock.  I gained 10.5 pounds in 8 days?!  That's not possible, right?  Sure, I had just finished with breakfast, and I've only worked out, like, one time since my last weigh-in, and I haven't been eating all that great, but, no, gaining 10 pounds in one week did not happen.  So, I got off the scale, and stepped back on - still 228.5.  I got off again, and got back on - still 228.5.  I took the battery out of the scale, put the battery back in, and stepped on the scale again - still 228.5.  Then, for about two minutes, I went through all the stages - denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance.  So, here I am, accepting the fact that this is where I am....again....but I refuse to stay here for long.  Heading back into the 230's is not going to happen.  Staying in the 220's isn't happening either.  Things have, clearly, gotten out of hand, and I have to do something about it, but talk is cheap.  I'm done talking.  I'll be back.

6 comments:

  1. Umm not to be too personal, but my guess is that you are "backed up" if you know what I mean. That kind of gain doesn' happen without something drastic. I know you haven't been binging terribly so that leaves one other option.

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  2. Who knows, Jen? I have always put on weight, very fast, but, yea, 10.5 pounds in a week is crazy.

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  3. I like your positive attitude towards the end of your post. I know you'll be super determined to see that figure disappear again.

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  4. I hope it's just water weight...hell - you just never know what the freaking fat Gods are doing! Ugh - I so feel your pain. I know what's like to get blindsided by the scale. It is scary and depressing - but I know you will not let it get you down for long! You are going to kick the shit out of that weight and make it wish it had never come back! :-)

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  5. Thanks everyone! I'm a bit down, but I know I have to keep going, no matter what, and I will!

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  6. That is a lot to put on in a week but don’t feel bad I have done it before on one of my binges. Acknowledge and move on, that's really the only way to deal with it. I am terrified to step on the scale because the last time (11/1/11) I had gained 4lbs.So who knows how much I packed on now! Having a broken arm turned me into a lazy eating machine. But you already have the right frame of mind and you know what you gotta do.. Kick that 10lbs' ass!

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