**Still Day 334**

I'm going to be participating in this challenge (thank you to Deb for bringing it to my attention!), and it's just what I need!!  It's going to be a good challenge, and there's a chance to win gifts, so that's a great bonus!  Jess (a runner) is putting on the challenge - you can check out the details here!!

**Days 332, 333, & 334**

Weight today - 229.5

So, it's not good.  I've done alot of damage.  And my first instinct is to say ~ Screw it!  I'll just do whatever this month, and start again in January!   But I'm not going to do that because I have no doubt that I if I eat like shit, and don't exercise, for the whole month of December I will gain the 19 pounds I have lost, and then I'll be starting from square one come Jan. 1st.  I've been gaining since July, and I need to stop!!

It's so hard to understand why I can't lose this weight when it's something I want so badly.  It, truly, boggles my mind, but I'm so tired of talking about it.  I'm tired of blogging about my failures, and I'm sure you're all tired of hearing about it!  I did so well the first six months of this year - I was so in the zone!  Then, for some reason, I just lost my motivation, and I went back to my usual cycle of doing great for three days, and then, totally, sucking for four days, and around and around I went - it's so frustrating!  But I know I can lose weight - I did it for 6 months, and I just need to get back there.

So, I have a huge weight loss goal for December.  I'm crazy to even attempt it because, really, who the hell tries to lose a bunch of weight in December??  But I need the challenge!!  I need a plan!!  I need to go into the new year with a loss!!  My goal is to have December be the month with my biggest loss.  Right now, January is the winner - I lost 11.5 pounds in January.  So, my goal for December is to lose 12 pounds.  I can do this!  Yes, I've gained and gained for the last few months, but I can make this goal happen if I want it enough.  Do I?  I do!  I know, you're all, probably, thinking that this is not going to happen, but come on - double dog dare me to do it!!  No, triple dog dare me!!

I'm heading down to my treadmill!

**Days 329, 330, & 331**

I was going to make a joke about how awful I've been doing, but my poor food choices and lack of exercise over the last few days is, seriously, nothing to joke about!  This weekend was a test, and I failed, miserably.  I stepped on the scale this morning, and I'm too ashamed to even type the number I saw!  I'm putting the scale out of my mind until I weigh-in on Wed. (last day of month), and then I'll let you all know where I'm at, but, right now, I'm not in a good place, and I need take a couple days to get myself together.

**Days 327 & 328**

Happy Thanksgiving!!!  So, I didn't start this long holiday weekend off very good - I didn't eat all that good yesterday, and I didn't exercise either....total fail!  I know this is going to be a tough weekend for me, and, obviously, I'm already not putting forth my best effort, but I'm going to try to do better.  I'm going to put most of my focus on family, and not so much on the food.  I will exercise, at some point, today, and I'm going to drink lots of water, and hope the water will make me feel full, so I won't want to eat too much!

Have a wonderful weekend!

**Day 326**

It rained all day, so I didn't get my outdoor 5k training in, but I did go to the gym tonight:

Treadmill - 10 min.
Crossramp Elliptical - 20 min.
Life Fitness Elliptical - 10 min.
Treadmill - 10 min.

The first treadmill I got on was really wobbly, so I only stayed on it for 10 min., and then I got on another treadmill after doing two different ellipticals, and that treadmill was much better!  Anyway, 50 min. of cardio - I'm happy with my workout tonight!

It's almost midnight, and I'm exhausted, so I've got nothing else.  Goodnight!

**Days 324 & 325**

The results have, finally, been posted for the 5k race I did on Saturday - 43:23!  Honestly, I don't think I finished  in less than 45 minutes.  They didn't have timing chips, so I don't even know how they timed it, but my husband thinks the time is about right, so, I guess, I'll take it!

I haven't worked out since the race - I planned a rest day for Sunday, but tonight I did plan on going out for some 5k training, but it didn't happen.  I have no excuse.  I tend to get lazy after I do a race.  I don't know why.  It's stupid.  I WILL workout tomorrow!  5k training, AND a trip to the gym!

**Day 323**

I participated in the Give Then Gobble 5k this morning with my mom, my aunt, and my cousin.  Of course, I forgot to start my watch when we started the race (I do this every time!!), so I don't know, exactly, how long it took me.  This wasn't a very big race - no timers along the way, no water stations, no time chips, etc., but they said it would be timed.  They did call out my bib number at the end, so I'm hoping they post the time results soon.  My hubby thinks I did it in less than 45 min., but I don't think so - we'll see.  I struggled big time!  I started out running, but I only lasted about 4 or 5 minutes, and then I alternated between walking and running the rest of the race.  It was cold and windy out there, but I had a good time!  Click on collage to enlarge.