**Day 126**

225.5 - so, I gained 1.5 pounds.  Shame!  I have no one to blame, but myself - if I'm going to go out the night before my weigh-in to stuff my face with Mexican food....chips and salsa, chicken enchiladas, beans, and rice....ummm, yea, I'm going to have a gain the next morning!  Moving on.

After seeing my gain this morning I, immediately, went down and did the 30 Day Shred, AND took a 2 mile walk outside, so most of my workout is done already for today - yay!  I'll do 2 more miles on the treadmill later, which will include C25K training.  Today is the final day for my C25K training - I've completed the 9 week program!!  Well, as I mentioned, I can't run 3.1 miles in 30 minutes, so I need to keep working on speed, and I'm going to start adding 5 minutes to my running each week until I can run for 60 minutes straight without stopping. So, next week I will run for 35 minutes straight, and try to up my speed, too.

I'm looking forward to a nice, relaxing weekend at our cabin!  I hope you all enjoy your weekend!!

**Still Day 125**

After dinner, I wanted to go home and walk 2 miles outside, then do 2 more miles on my treadmill, and finish up with the 30 Day Shred, but when we walked out of the restaurant it was raining!  I really didn't want to walk 4 miles on the treadmill because the other speaker went out last night (stupid speakers), and walking 4 miles staring at the wall didn't sound fun, at all!  So, we went to Best Buy to buy a new Walk Away the Pounds DVD!  I picked this one:


I popped the dvd in as soon as I got home, and I did 3 miles - it was a good workout!  For those of you who aren't familiar with Walk Away the Pounds - you're not just standing in one place walking....there's other moves involved like kick backs, side steps, leg kicks, knee lifts, etc., so it's not just a little stroll your taking! I really sweat when I do these dvd's.  And this dvd came with the firm band, and I could, definitely, feel the burn in my biceps and triceps when I had to use it.  After finishing the WATP dvd, I did the 30 Day Shred dvd, and after that I walked on the treadmill for 20 min. walking a little over a mile, so I worked out for about 1 hour 45 minutes.  I felt much better during the workouts tonight, so, I think, my body is getting out of the funk it's been in.

I'll be weighing myself first thing in the morning - I'm pretty sure I'll be seeing a gain, especially after the Mexican meal I had tonight!  I did skip getting a Margarita.....even though I really, really, really wanted one!

**Day 125**

I tell ya, my monthly visitor (Flo) is kicking my ass this week.  I've been feeling so bloated, sluggish, and tired all week.  I can, barely, keep my eyes open right now.  And this is too much information, but, hey, this is my blog so I can share what I want to share - my period is SO heavy this month (disgustingly heavy), and I hate working out when it's like this!  Oh, and I got on the scale yesterday, and I was up 4 pounds since my weigh-in on Saturday....seriously?!  Whatever.  I'm not even going to worry about it because I know I'm working out like crazy, drinking my water, and doing, fairly, good with my eating...though we are going out for Mexican food tonight (Cinco de Mayo, baby!!).   So, I'm sure my number on the scale tomorrow is not going to be great, but I'm okay with it.

As I mentioned yesterday, I did the 30 Day Shred, and I took a 1 mile walk with my girls.  It took until late, late last night to get my butt down to my treadmill to do my last 3 miles, and my C25K training because I knew it was going to be a tough workout because of how I've been feeling all week, and I was right - the whole workout sucked!  My body is just not feeling it this week, but I got through the whole workout.  I did a total of 1 hour- 30 minutes running, and 30 minutes walking, so, yea, it took me 60 minutes to go 3.1 miles, and that was with running half of the time!  I just couldn't get a good pace going, but my legs were shaking when I was done!  My body is really in a funk, right now.  I hope it passes, quickly!


I still have to get my workouts in for today - 30 Day Shred, and 4 miles of walking!  It's already after 5pm - do you think I'm procrastinating a bit?  Yup, I am!  But I'll get it done!  I plan on doing it after we get home from going out to eat - I'm going to need to work off some of that Mexican food!

**Day 124**

I woke up with sore arms and abs from the 30 Day Shred, ouch!, but it's, also, a good feeling because I know my body is getting something out of the workout!  I'm hoping to see a difference in my arms at the end of this month because I'm not liking my flabby arms, at all!!  This is what I'm dealing with:

Yup, that's my flabby underarm!  If I flap hard enough I just might be able to fly!  It doesn't even look like an arm - more like a thigh!  I hate it, and I fear the flab (flap?) is there forever because it's just loose skin, and loose skin can't be tightened, right?  I, often, worry about the loose skin I'm going to have - my arms, my boobs, my inner thighs, and my stomach.  My stomach is going to be bad....really, really bad!  But I can't let the fear of loose skin stop me from losing this weight because the most important thing is my health - not my appearance, right?  Still, I have to admit that, sometimes, I get so mad at myself for letting this happen to my body - for ruining it.  I know I need to get past it though - it is what it is, and I have to move on.  I love this quote:


"Forget past mistakes. Forget failures. Forget everything except what you're going to do now and do it." ~ William Durant


I need to remember this when I get the urge to start beating myself up.


I did the 30 Day Shred (sore abs, arms, and all) first thing this morning, and I took a 1 mile walk outside with my girls.  I still need to do 3 miles on the treadmill which will include my C25K training - I will get that done in a couple hours, FOR SURE!  I will NOT skip my workouts - it's not an option!

**Day 123**

I've decided not to continue w/ Weight Watchers.  I know I only gave it a little over a month, but I, usually, know, pretty quick, when something is a good fit for me, and I'm just not feeling it - the points plus, the meetings - not for me.  I know it's a great program for many, many people, but I want to go back to doing my own thing, and counting my calories - I think, tracking my calories is much easier than trying to figure out the point values for each food, but that's just me.  So, my weigh-in days will go back to being on Fridays.

My period arrived this morning (two days early - what's that about?!), and my day just went downhill from there!  I swear, I was dragging ass, all day!  It took everything I had to get through my workouts, but I did get through them!  I did the 30 day Shred, and I walked 4 miles on my treadmill - it took me 1 hour 10 minutes to do the 4 miles:


I walked between 3.0 and 3.6 MPH, but I spent the majority of the time at 3.5 MPH, and it kicked my butt!  I almost stopped at 3 miles because I was ready to drop, but I forced myself to go one more mile, and I'm proud that I pushed myself to keep going!!

**Day 122**

Day 122 is almost over, but I did get all my workouts in today!  I walked 2 miles outside, then I did 2.1 miles on my treadmill, THEN I did the 30 day Shred dvd!  Whew - I'm tired, but I feel good!  I was on my treadmill for 40 minutes for my C25K training - walk 5 min., run 30 min., walk 5 min.  This is the final week for my C25K training, and I have no trouble running for 30 minutes straight, but I can't run 3.1 miles in that 30 min., so I will be working on improving my time over the next couple months.  The 5K I'm running isn't until July 21st, so I have plenty of time to train for it.  I can't wait to run that race!!

**Day 121**

I'm a little mad at myself for my pouty post yesterday because I don't have anything to pout about.  I mean, really, I'm losing weight every month, and I need to be proud of that!  I'm fitting into jeans that have been hanging in my closet for two years (by the way, they are a Old Navy size 16 PLUS - not regular).  I'm exercising almost every single day, and I can run for 28 minutes straight.  I'm eating better than I have in my entire life.  Physically, I feel better than I have in YEARS!  So, I'm done with pouting over not losing enough weight because 6 pounds in one month IS enough - it's great!  And I'm going to keep on losing!

May Goals:

*   Lose 8 pounds
*   Drink, at least, 96 ounces of water per day
*   Healthy eating
*   Walk/Run 4 miles per day Mon - Fri, Walk 2 miles every Sat.
*   Complete Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred:
             May 02 - May 11, Level 1
             May 12 - May 21, Level 2
             May 22 - May 31, Level 3